Timing is Everything

It is so hard sometimes to wait for God's timing. All I want to do is look at my phone and see a text from you. I want your heart to be ready and I want you to desire me the way I desire you. I want you to pursue me, woo me and treat me like a princess. I want to make plans with you, when we'll see each other again, when we'll move to the same city, when we'll walk down the aisle. I want white picket fences with you.

And I don't even know if this is God's plan for us. Am I wasting my time, holding out for a dream that may never come true?

I was listening to a sermon today about wishes. Everyone has them and they are created by one of two things:

1. Frustrations

2. Opportunities

My wish to be with you falls into both categories. I'm frustrated that we can't be together and I see the amazing opportunity we would have if we were. I get so frustrated. Sometimes even angry that you aren't here the way I need you to be.

But Paul said in Philippians 2:3, "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourselves."

You need this time alone. Being single is what's best for you right now and even if it is God's plan for us to be together, you aren't ready and it can't be now. You are not in a place to love me back. So while you are soul-searching, seeking Christ and allowing him to heal you, I'll be pursuing God with all my heart. I'll be letting him romance me. I will let him fill all my empty places with his enduring love.

And if he does have plans for us to be together, praise Him for that glorious day, for we will both be better suited for each other and ready to begin a life together full of God's joys, blessings and comforts.

And praise Him if we aren't meant for each other, for that means God has better plans for us apart than with us together.

I can already feel his love carrying me through this waiting game. And I know I'll be a better person for it.