I called things off for a reason. I had us take a step back and return to the friendship we had before. It's because I love you that I did this.
You are not over your ex and the ghost of a past relationship is something I will never be able to compete with, nor should I have to. This is a time for you to evaluate your life, to heal, to seek closure and move on. I don't want to distract you from that process or prolong it in anyway. This is a time for you. To cry, to ask why, to be selfish and ultimately, to find the strength and courage to move on. It won't happen overnight, but it will happen.
And when it does, I'll be here should you want me. But if you don't that's okay too, because God has great plans for us both.
I also had us take a step back for myself. I need to protect my heart. I told you that if we didn't I was in danger of getting in too deep too fast. What you don't know is that I'm already in too deep. I need to take a step back and allow you to find yourself. I also need to respect myself. I deserve someone that will give me everything of themselves, like I'm willing to give to you. I hope one day that someone will be you, but for now, it's not. The timing was ours, not God's.
I still don't believe this is over, but if we ever want a real chance down the road, it has to be for now.
In the mean time, I will be here for you if you need me.
I love you and I'm praying for you.
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